It’s not that I need something to write about. There’s plenty.
For starters, my week-long vacation to Orlando with one of my very best girlfriends (and visiting with another bestie while we were there) was awesome. There were a few exceptions to the vacations awesome-ness, but over all, it was pretty great. But for some reason, I’m just not in the mood to write about it right now. I’ll get to that post soon, but later. (Hah.)
Then, there’s the developmental meetings and the clinic I’ve been doing with Bug. He’s been doing pretty well recently (almost on his own), but still refuses to use a single word in recognizable English. But I’m not entirely in the mood to write about that right now, either.
There’s the ever-present fact that my eldest son refuses to listen (to me, or his gym class instructor, or his father), and has developed quite the little attitude. Or the fact that I’m trying (and failing) to find a babysitter for my one son while I take the other to his developmental clinic, making that experience exponentially more stressful. But who wants to listen to me kvetch about my preschooler woes?
Of course there’re always interesting and depressing hot topics in the news. But there are plenty of other bloggers writing plenty of things about that stuff, too.
It’s been more than a week since I got home from vacation, and I still feel like I’m in that after-vacation lull. I’m home, I’m getting back into the usual swing of things around the house. I’m gearing up for another period of being home with the boys without the support or company of my husband (hooray ~.~).
It’s like an anti-motivational cloud has settled on me. I have no desire to get things done. I am not even in the mood to make new things for dinner (which is usually a fun thing to do for me).
The kicker is, I think I know (at least part of the reason) why it’s so hard for me to get back. But as it stands, there’s really not much I can do about it.
My friends and family know I’m a very social person. I enjoy being with friends, whether it’s going out for an evening or just having some coffee here at home with them.
Since we’ve been here, back on the east coast (where it should have been easier for me to hang out with friends I’ve already got, or so I thought), I’ve made zero new friends. I’ve left the house a minimal number of times, and most of them have revolved around the boys.
I’ve actively tried to start a group meet-up to find like-minded people that might be open to a new friendship or two, but that epically failed, and I’ve been less than motivated to try again.
Now, half-way through our stay in this area, I’m beginning to lose the point in making any new friends here anyway. Given that in a year-and-a-half, we’ll be leaving again, and I’ll just have to leave those friends behind again, it’s just not looking like a great idea anymore.
But I NEED socialization. Especially when my husband is gone. There’s nothing like being pent up in a house with no one to talk to but two small children to make you go crazy. We get out (for whatever activity it is that the boys are doing), but there’s not a whole lot of adult socialization happening there, either.
No one seems to want to chat anymore. What’s with that?
I’ve already hashed over the “put the kids in daycare a few hours for a few days a week and take a class” idea. But it’s too expensive. So it’s not happening.
I also am fairly wary of making friends with people that have kids (what a hypocrite, right?). The whole thing is, I want a friend for me, not necessarily for my boys. And I want a friend that will talk about things other than children with me. If I can find a friend that has kids (or is in the military) and that’s not the only thing I have in common with them, that’s great. But when the conversation doesn’t ever get past what the kids do/are doing/have done, I’m sorry, but I’m out. Maybe I’m being too picky at this point.
At any rate, that’s where I am these days. (Hey at least I wrote this post – that’s something, right?)
How do you motivate yourself when motivation disappears? Any advice for a stay-at-home-mom on making friends in new places?